I’m feeling lost. I’ve been staring at my blog editor for I don’t know how long. I want to write, or rather I need to write, but I can’t figure out where to begin and where to end. So let’s begin with the fact that I’m a little lost.
Somehow I lost myself. In becoming a mama of two. In saying goodbye to my identity as a full-time student. In not knowing what I should do after my maternity leave ends. In the odd time, we are all living in. Somewhere, in the midst of everything, I lost myself.
Everything Has Changed
I’ve changed. I think most of us experience some sort of feeling of change when we add another little human being to our family. Dynamics change. Rhythms change. I don’t necessarily deal well with that change.
Before you go on thinking I have postpartum depression, I want to put your heart at rest. I don’t. I’m just feeling lost in all the changes but I’m not depressed.
I remember cutting off my hair when I had my first child. I needed that visible change to mark everything that was going on inside me. I’m not going to do that this time, although I’m due for a trim.
The Blog’s Future & Purpose
This blog has been many things and nothing at all for as long as I’ve had it. I’ve had plans, dreams and hopes. I’ve worked hard but probably on the wrong things. I’ve blogged as you’re told to do if you want to make something of the blog. If you are serious about your blog.
I’ve been oh so serious. So serious, I forgot how fun blogging used to be. In the good old days. Long before blogging grew up and became the industry it now is.
I feel like the wolf who huffed and puffed but couldn’t blow over the third little pig’s brick home. It’s time to stop being the wolf and instead become the pig.
This is my brick home. It’s my little corner of the internet. I’m thankful for you being here, visiting, leaving hopefully a little more inspired, hopeful or simply touched in some way.
But ultimately it’s my home. I need to make it into something that reflects me, my thoughts, my life. If it can help you as well, that would be wonderful but right now, most of all I’m writing for me.
I won’t keep a schedule. I might publish two posts one day, fifteen one month and then none for a while. I really don’t know but I hope you’ll be here for the journey.
A Process of Rediscovery
The journey I’m setting out on is one of rediscovery. Who am I? What’s important to me? Besides my roles as a mama and wife, what am I passionate about? How do I choose to keep my hands busy?
I’m in the process of making a lot of changes in our home. We need to find a good way to fit four people in our small home. I’m embracing more of a minimalist approach. I hope to share that on here.
I’m also trying to discover my style and build a slow, sustainable wardrobe from scratch. That’s most likely something I will share as well.
I may share what books I’m reading, podcasts I’m listening to and whatever else I feel like.
I consider this the first of hopefully many writings from my hearth. It’s not exactly quiet at the moment but it’ll get there. If your heart isn’t quiet either you can get there as well. Together we’ll figure out a way forward.
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